Crisis Over

Since I can't afford much of anything now, I think I'm going to take time off to work and save money, then go to graduate school. I like the sound of that more and more every time I say it. I plan on saving money to travel as well since I've had wanderlust basically since I came back from the South Pacific eight years ago...

I'm still a little shaken up thinking about the future, but having a concrete plan (which is still hardening) makes me feel much better.

Regarding the very near future: FALL IS HERE! HOMECOMING IS APPROACHING! I'm super stoked. To me, these things represent:
-cold weather (great for running- WAHOO!)
-brisk, crisp air
-seeing my smoky breath (Yes, I'm very easily amused)
-hot beverages
-cuddling season (wish I had a dog, or that my cat was friendlier)
-"Hocus Pocus" - my favorite Halloween movie from childhood
-ALL the scary movies coming into theaters - I stinkin love horror movies. Suspense, real life stuff>gore, torture, gratuitous sex
-holiday season (Thanksgiving, Christmas)
-pecan, chocolate, chess/buttermilk PIE (nom nom nom)
-community :)

Mid-semester Crisis

Wah wah.

I'm smack dab in the middle of the graduate school application process. It's messing with my head. I think I know what I want to do, but completing the many requirements for each school AND staying on top of my academic/employment/extracurricular activities is proving to be almost too hard. It's also all so expensive, I'm wondering if this is worth it...if this is what I'm really supposed to do.

The idea of taking a year off to work, because the job I have now basically pays in love and free food, sounds like a great plan. Continuing on to a grad school program I love and praying for an assistantship/a nice part-time job doesn't sound bad either. Whatever I choose, life is expensive, so I really can't base my decision on finances.

I've talked with a few women I consider wise and they've suggested being introspective to find out what I need to do.

what in the world?

I'm hardly an adult! How am I supposed to know what I need to do for the next 1-5 years? Alright, I have some ideas, but all of this responsibility is awful [great most of the time, actually]. It's times like this when a lot of money is riding that it feels awful.

Time to find some answers I suppose...